Love. [revelation that brings peace]

A while ago, I asked God for a picture of His love that would speak to me in a new way. This is what He said:

"My love is like an ocean--so vast you cannot see the end.
My waves of love are constant and powerful.
There are times when you get hit with bigger waves than others--those are beautiful moments when you find the reality of my love.
Other times, my love is more gentle like when the waves are small.
But even when the waves are small or you are between waves, or when you are sitting on shore, or in the middle past the waves, my love does not change.
In fact it is when you are truly in the center of my love that it doesn't knock you over.
When you pass the waves into open sea, it feels different, but my Love does not change.
Sometimes out of my love, I toss you onto shore so you can stand back and see just how great my love is, but I will always draw you back into my love with another wave.
I want you to spend your life in the middle of the ocean, trusting me to bring the right waves at the right time.
I also want to teach you how to "surf" so that you can ride the waves of my love with joy instead of brokenness--I do not desire to always knock you down and break you with my love.
I want to have fun with you, and I want you to teach others to surf the waves of my love because they are looking for someone to teach them."

Recently, I was feeling really restless and asked God why I felt unsatisfied and frustrated. I sensed Him saying, "Hannah, you are not letting Me love all of you."
At first I didn't know what this meant but over the last week or so He has been so faithful to show me what it means to let Him love me.He is teaching me how to give up control by being completely vulnerable with Him--He wants to love the parts of us that we are ashamed of.
So often I have found myself being vulnerable enough to feel like I was being "honest" with God, but was still holding back my true feelings because I didn't feel like I had a right to feel the way I felt. But God wants us to be 100% honest with Him regardless of what that looks like. In a relationship, vulnerability is key to intimacy. Why do we think it should be any different with our Lord?
It's been so sweet to see the way God continually builds on all of this by speaking the same things to me through people when they pray for me. Saturday night we had an all night worship service here on base and God really used that time to confirm even more the things He has been speaking to me.

P.S. This song is my current favorite/theme song for my life in this season. God is SO GOOD!

P.P.S. I am getting more and more excited to leave for the Dominican Republic and Haiti in a few days.
I cannot wait to share the freedom I have found with the people there.
God has been speaking a lot of vision to our team about what He wants to do on outreach and it's gonna be amazing! I'm SO PUMPED! :D